Monday, 31 August 2009

• Maybe I'm just afraid of love?

  I get these "I want to be in a serious relationship" and "I just want to have fun for now" thoughts & feelings that make me go insane!! I haven't figured out what to do about them quite yet =|

  Do I be with you and can't see you often then I move out-of-state for a few months, or do I not be with you, wonder what if and get somebody else "for now"??

  I'm SO lost. It's like I KNOW I want to be with him for a long time, he's someone I've been waiting for! EXACTLY what I could've ever asked for and MORE. He's actually someone I would want to marry in the future. But what if we are together NOW and end up splitting because of our distance, that means the future has a less chance. But I COULD wait until I graduate high school and only be 15mins away from where he lives and we could start our life together...OR I'm getting ahead of myself!! >_<

  I just don't want to lose the love I could have just because I didn't want to be committed at this moment.

   I'm kidding myself to think that I could EVER find anyone as near to perfect for me as he is!!

  I don't even know.

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